Leaving all behind...

I literally leave everyone behind... but in my heart you will always and always be here.

I'm sorry.. I never got a chance to say my bye-bye, I'm sorry.. if I made some of you sad because of my decision. Some of you knew my reason, some of you experienced what I experienced, and some of you saw what I saw. I don't want to explain myself why I need to leave, why I need to do this, because I'm hoping each of you will understand what I'm going through.

Anyways, I praise and worship the Lord for He used DCF to reach me. He equipped Leaders to made His name known to a teenager who wants to cut her life. He used people to help her to give herself another chance to live. He blessed her a lot of people to mold her inside and out. I thanked God for He used me to His Kingdom to give glory to His Only Name. I thanked God for all the Leaders who taught me how to: ENDURE EVERYTHING AND KEEPING MY HEART ON THE GROUND. I thanked God for all the relationships I built inside DCF. I thanked JESUS for being a VERY VERY VERY GOOD MODEL. I thanked Holy Spirit for always and always in control, for always helping me to endure everything.

I have some messages to all of you..

First... to my spiritual daughters.. you know who you are.. dalawa lang naman kayo. hehe. Nang dahil sainyong dalawa, naranasan kong maapi sa text ng mga boyfriends niyo, hehe.. but fun sakin yun, ibig sabihin may challenge, ibig sabihin may laban na dapat ipanalo. And YES!, the witness of God will always WIN.. break-up doon, break-up dito.. and I don't care how many break-ups you have kasi nakita ko na mas pinili niyo ang LORD, at yun ang munting kaligayahan namin, ang makita kayong nagpapatuloy at lumalago sa Lord. Ang bilin ko ha... kapag nalaman kong may kapalpakan e alam niyo na. hehe. Be strong In The Lord, always. Cheche, study first. ^_^

Second.. to K4C Teachers.. ito lang masasabi ko, wag pasaway. You are Teachers, kayo dapat ang nauunang nagsa-submit ha.. malalaki na kayo. Umayos kayo. ^_^

Third.. to my friends..

Ate Sarah, hindi pa tayo naguusap ulit. Pero alam kong kakausapin at kakausapin mo ko kapag nagkatagpo tayo. Some of our Leaders, alam na kung gaano ako kaatat na umalis, but your always there to block my way... and I love it.. coz' you always made me feel na may dapat pa kong ibigay sa Lord. Pero yung last awat mo, di na gumana.. I'm ready na kasi talaga.hehe.

Kuya Ryan T., when Kuya Jeof and Ate Len leave the church, kayo ang pumalit sakanila, alam kong mahirap, alam kong nahihirapan din kayo, that's why as much as possible ayoko ng dumagdag pa sa iiisipin niyo, ayokong dagdag pa ko sa aalagaan niyo, kasi alam ko isa rin ako sa naiwan, isa rin ako sa na-trained.. kaya hangga't maaari, kahit anong ipapagawa niyo, gagawin ko para mapagaan lahat. Sorry, kasi may pagiinarte akong ginagawa kapag kailangan sumayaw, e kasi ayoko talagang sumasayaw. But for the Lord and for my respect for elderly, I will take away the Kaye-Kaye who can't dance but can step up for the Lord. Kuya Ryan, like what other Leaders did, your always take out the best on me. Kahit ayoko. haha. Thanks, Kuya Ryan.

Kuya Noel, .... .... ... ... ..... ..... .... ... ... ....... .....  ganyan tayong dalawa, nagkakaintindihan kahit walang salitang lumalabas. Tapik lang, okay na, Hi-Hello, ayos na. If do you think wala akong masasabi sayo kasi hindi naman tayo close o naguusap talaga like everyday or every Sunday, may impact ka pa din sakin kuya, kasi you teach me how to translate harsh words to a nicest words...and you taught me how to be more mature in terms of dealing serious things. Mas natutunan kong magisip muna bago magsalita, mas natutunan kong mas maging matalino sa lahat ng bagay at kung paano i-appreciated lahat ng bagay kahit na maliit ito. Maraming salamat Kuya. ^_^

Kuya Frederick, you will always be my "YABANG METER", hindi dahil mayabang ka, kasi HINDI naman talaga. Nasabi ko lang yun kasi ganun ang tingin ko sayo, sa tuwing may naa-accomplished akong isang bagay for the Lord at nakakaramdam ako ng kayabangan, tignan lang kita, baba na ulit ako sa lupa. haha. Bakit? Ano ba nagawa ko compare sayo? Ano bang tapang ko sa pag-share ng God's word compare sayo? Sa boses mo pa lang talo na ko. HAHA. Lagi kang malakas, lagi kang maharot! Di ko alam kung energetic ka lang talaga o filled ka lang ng Holy Spirit.. but as long na sa  Lord mo ginagamit ang lakas mo, nakakasigurado akong Holy Spirit ang na sayo. Kuya, alam mo ba kung anong naturo mo sakin? Maging WEIRD, maging weird for the LORD. hehe. :D Ito na.. magStep-up na ko..  Kaye-kaye Version Two Point Ow.

Ate Frejerel... alam ko namang nami-miss mo na ko.. pero its time to give others a chance na kilalanin ka, hehe.. simula umpisa hanggang paglabas ko ng DCF, nanatili kang SIMPLE at TAHIMIK, maaaring hindi ma-notice ng iba how you grow spiritually, but I do. I saw how you stand firm sa lahat ng pinagdaanan natin sa K4C, sa lahat ng stress natin sa Bulletin, I saw how you grow, tignan mo ikaw na lang naiwan sa bulletin team.. hehe. You are very dear to me, why? Kasi ikaw sumasalo ng sama ng loob ko, sayo ko lang nasasabi lahat yun.. tapos magsasalo-salo na tayo sa sama ng loob, haha.. pero after nun, sasabihin mo sakin.. 'Ikaw, anong plano mo?', favorite line mo yan e. Well, anyways, parehas naman tayong kalma, pero mas kalma ka, kaya mas natuto akong kumalma.

To very charming Rhoa, I know how brave you are but sometimes being brave is not enough to deal every situation in life. All you need to do is KNEEL, just PRAY. Bugbugin mo sa prayer mga kailangan mo, para at the end, hindi ka na nga pagod, nagkaroon ka pa ng magandang moment with the Lord. Don't hesitate to ask Him or anyone for a help. Nagawa ka ngang Kristiyano Ni Lord e, WORK pa kaya? Just have a right perspective and behavior, everything will be okay. Basta will ng Lord, Siya ang magtutustos. ALL IS WELL under GOD's UMBRELLA. Stay cool.. be cool for the Lord. Andito lang ako sa paligid, text mo lang ako. Hanggat kaya ni Ate, reresbak ako, magpre-pray tayo.

To Kuya Andy... oy kasali siya.. haha.. Tol, ikaw lang ang bukod tanging tumatawag saking Miss Minchin, kasi ikaw lang ang may lakas-loob akong tawaging ganyan, di mo ba napansin na takot sakin mga kabataan? haha. Well, thanks for being honest, as always. Pero may mga salitang hindi na dapat sinasabi ha.. tulad ng "ang taba mo aling gereng", haha.. well, don't ever tell a girl that she's fat kasi may dalawang result yan maaaring ma-super conscious siya at bumaba ang self-esteem or sumama ang loob sayo.. respect pa din kahit super close na.. YOU ARE A MAN OF GOD, be A MAN with GODLY WORDS. okay ba tayo dun? haha, pinagalitan. Salamat ha, kasi napaka-expressive mo, hindi na ko nahirapan kilalanin ka. Hindi mo na ko pinahirapang kaibiganin ka. Salamat, alagaan si Rhoa ha at yung mga kapatid mo kay Kuya Noel (wag mainit ulo).

To Jenjen and Jumz, sana wag muna dumating ang araw na magiging isa na lang ang gift na matatanggap ko galing sainyo. ^_^ Well, I am very happy for the both of you, sa wakas. Hays, tagal natin hinintay to, kung saan-saan pa kasi naglakbay si Jenjen e, nasa harapan lang naman niya at naghihintay. I believed God prepare the both of you to enter that jungle I mean relationship.. and I believe you knew the do's and don't's.. basta happy ako sainyong dalawa.. ^_^

To Dan and Ryan, alam ko naman nami-miss niyo ko, kaya wala na kong sasabihin pang iba kundi, umayos kayong dalawa. Alam niyong last year ko pa kayo kinausap tungkol dito, kaya umayos kayong dalawa. Salamat sa Dan na halos male version ko, at Ryan na out-of-this-world ang kaisipan. I am happy that you are now both serving the Lord... magpatuloy lang ha. Wag maarte.

Well, yun na lang muna.. ay wait.. si Cado pala... this young man who always think na pinaglalaruan ko siya, hehe.. Kuya, proud ako sayo.. wag ka maarte. Sinusingitan lang kita kasi sarap mong sungitan, haha.. pero natutuwa ako sayo. Kung ano man ang nagagawa mo ngayon for the Lord, naniniwala akong may ilalabas ka pa, just be confident, kasama mo ang Lord sa bawat hakbang na gagawin mo. God bless, Kuya Cado.

Always remember that your always and always in my prayers at baon-baon ko lahat ng natutunan ko sainyo. Maraming salamat sainyong lahat, hanggang sa muli nating pagkikita. God bless!

Kaye.
Ate Kaye.
Teacher Kaye.
Sister Kaye.