Leaving all behind...


I literally leave everyone behind... but in my heart you will always and always be here.

I'm sorry.. I never got a chance to say my bye-bye, I'm sorry.. if I made some of you sad because of my decision. Some of you knew my reason, some of you experienced what I experienced, and some of you saw what I saw. I don't want to explain myself why I need to leave, why I need to do this, because I'm hoping each of you will understand what I'm going through.

Anyways, I praise and worship the Lord for He used DCF to reach me. He equipped Leaders to made His name known to a teenager who wants to cut her life. He used people to help her to give herself another chance to live. He blessed her a lot of people to mold her inside and out. I thanked God for He used me to His Kingdom to give glory to His Only Name. I thanked God for all the Leaders who taught me how to: ENDURE EVERYTHING AND KEEPING MY HEART ON THE GROUND. I thanked God for all the relationships I built inside DCF. I thanked JESUS for being a VERY VERY VERY GOOD MODEL. I thanked Holy Spirit for always and always in control, for always helping me to endure everything.

I have some messages to all of you..

First... to my spiritual daughters.. you know who you are.. dalawa lang naman kayo. hehe. Nang dahil sainyong dalawa, naranasan kong maapi sa text ng mga boyfriends niyo, hehe.. but fun sakin yun, ibig sabihin may challenge, ibig sabihin may laban na dapat ipanalo. And YES!, the witness of God will always WIN.. break-up doon, break-up dito.. and I don't care how many break-ups you have kasi nakita ko na mas pinili niyo ang LORD, at yun ang munting kaligayahan namin, ang makita kayong nagpapatuloy at lumalago sa Lord. Ang bilin ko ha... kapag nalaman kong may kapalpakan e alam niyo na. hehe. Be strong In The Lord, always. Cheche, study first. ^_^

Second.. to K4C Teachers.. ito lang masasabi ko, wag pasaway. You are Teachers, kayo dapat ang nauunang nagsa-submit ha.. malalaki na kayo. Umayos kayo. ^_^

Third.. to my friends..

Ate Sarah, hindi pa tayo naguusap ulit. Pero alam kong kakausapin at kakausapin mo ko kapag nagkatagpo tayo. Some of our Leaders, alam na kung gaano ako kaatat na umalis, but your always there to block my way... and I love it.. coz' you always made me feel na may dapat pa kong ibigay sa Lord. Pero yung last awat mo, di na gumana.. I'm ready na kasi talaga.hehe.

Kuya Ryan T., when Kuya Jeof and Ate Len leave the church, kayo ang pumalit sakanila, alam kong mahirap, alam kong nahihirapan din kayo, that's why as much as possible ayoko ng dumagdag pa sa iiisipin niyo, ayokong dagdag pa ko sa aalagaan niyo, kasi alam ko isa rin ako sa naiwan, isa rin ako sa na-trained.. kaya hangga't maaari, kahit anong ipapagawa niyo, gagawin ko para mapagaan lahat. Sorry, kasi may pagiinarte akong ginagawa kapag kailangan sumayaw, e kasi ayoko talagang sumasayaw. But for the Lord and for my respect for elderly, I will take away the Kaye-Kaye who can't dance but can step up for the Lord. Kuya Ryan, like what other Leaders did, your always take out the best on me. Kahit ayoko. haha. Thanks, Kuya Ryan.

Kuya Noel, .... .... ... ... ..... ..... .... ... ... ....... .....  ganyan tayong dalawa, nagkakaintindihan kahit walang salitang lumalabas. Tapik lang, okay na, Hi-Hello, ayos na. If do you think wala akong masasabi sayo kasi hindi naman tayo close o naguusap talaga like everyday or every Sunday, may impact ka pa din sakin kuya, kasi you teach me how to translate harsh words to a nicest words...and you taught me how to be more mature in terms of dealing serious things. Mas natutunan kong magisip muna bago magsalita, mas natutunan kong mas maging matalino sa lahat ng bagay at kung paano i-appreciated lahat ng bagay kahit na maliit ito. Maraming salamat Kuya. ^_^

Kuya Frederick, you will always be my "YABANG METER", hindi dahil mayabang ka, kasi HINDI naman talaga. Nasabi ko lang yun kasi ganun ang tingin ko sayo, sa tuwing may naa-accomplished akong isang bagay for the Lord at nakakaramdam ako ng kayabangan, tignan lang kita, baba na ulit ako sa lupa. haha. Bakit? Ano ba nagawa ko compare sayo? Ano bang tapang ko sa pag-share ng God's word compare sayo? Sa boses mo pa lang talo na ko. HAHA. Lagi kang malakas, lagi kang maharot! Di ko alam kung energetic ka lang talaga o filled ka lang ng Holy Spirit.. but as long na sa  Lord mo ginagamit ang lakas mo, nakakasigurado akong Holy Spirit ang na sayo. Kuya, alam mo ba kung anong naturo mo sakin? Maging WEIRD, maging weird for the LORD. hehe. :D Ito na.. magStep-up na ko..  Kaye-kaye Version Two Point Ow.

Ate Frejerel... alam ko namang nami-miss mo na ko.. pero its time to give others a chance na kilalanin ka, hehe.. simula umpisa hanggang paglabas ko ng DCF, nanatili kang SIMPLE at TAHIMIK, maaaring hindi ma-notice ng iba how you grow spiritually, but I do. I saw how you stand firm sa lahat ng pinagdaanan natin sa K4C, sa lahat ng stress natin sa Bulletin, I saw how you grow, tignan mo ikaw na lang naiwan sa bulletin team.. hehe. You are very dear to me, why? Kasi ikaw sumasalo ng sama ng loob ko, sayo ko lang nasasabi lahat yun.. tapos magsasalo-salo na tayo sa sama ng loob, haha.. pero after nun, sasabihin mo sakin.. 'Ikaw, anong plano mo?', favorite line mo yan e. Well, anyways, parehas naman tayong kalma, pero mas kalma ka, kaya mas natuto akong kumalma.

To very charming Rhoa, I know how brave you are but sometimes being brave is not enough to deal every situation in life. All you need to do is KNEEL, just PRAY. Bugbugin mo sa prayer mga kailangan mo, para at the end, hindi ka na nga pagod, nagkaroon ka pa ng magandang moment with the Lord. Don't hesitate to ask Him or anyone for a help. Nagawa ka ngang Kristiyano Ni Lord e, WORK pa kaya? Just have a right perspective and behavior, everything will be okay. Basta will ng Lord, Siya ang magtutustos. ALL IS WELL under GOD's UMBRELLA. Stay cool.. be cool for the Lord. Andito lang ako sa paligid, text mo lang ako. Hanggat kaya ni Ate, reresbak ako, magpre-pray tayo.

To Kuya Andy... oy kasali siya.. haha.. Tol, ikaw lang ang bukod tanging tumatawag saking Miss Minchin, kasi ikaw lang ang may lakas-loob akong tawaging ganyan, di mo ba napansin na takot sakin mga kabataan? haha. Well, thanks for being honest, as always. Pero may mga salitang hindi na dapat sinasabi ha.. tulad ng "ang taba mo aling gereng", haha.. well, don't ever tell a girl that she's fat kasi may dalawang result yan maaaring ma-super conscious siya at bumaba ang self-esteem or sumama ang loob sayo.. respect pa din kahit super close na.. YOU ARE A MAN OF GOD, be A MAN with GODLY WORDS. okay ba tayo dun? haha, pinagalitan. Salamat ha, kasi napaka-expressive mo, hindi na ko nahirapan kilalanin ka. Hindi mo na ko pinahirapang kaibiganin ka. Salamat, alagaan si Rhoa ha at yung mga kapatid mo kay Kuya Noel (wag mainit ulo).

To Jenjen and Jumz, sana wag muna dumating ang araw na magiging isa na lang ang gift na matatanggap ko galing sainyo. ^_^ Well, I am very happy for the both of you, sa wakas. Hays, tagal natin hinintay to, kung saan-saan pa kasi naglakbay si Jenjen e, nasa harapan lang naman niya at naghihintay. I believed God prepare the both of you to enter that jungle I mean relationship.. and I believe you knew the do's and don't's.. basta happy ako sainyong dalawa.. ^_^

To Dan and Ryan, alam ko naman nami-miss niyo ko, kaya wala na kong sasabihin pang iba kundi, umayos kayong dalawa. Alam niyong last year ko pa kayo kinausap tungkol dito, kaya umayos kayong dalawa. Salamat sa Dan na halos male version ko, at Ryan na out-of-this-world ang kaisipan. I am happy that you are now both serving the Lord... magpatuloy lang ha. Wag maarte.

Well, yun na lang muna.. ay wait.. si Cado pala... this young man who always think na pinaglalaruan ko siya, hehe.. Kuya, proud ako sayo.. wag ka maarte. Sinusingitan lang kita kasi sarap mong sungitan, haha.. pero natutuwa ako sayo. Kung ano man ang nagagawa mo ngayon for the Lord, naniniwala akong may ilalabas ka pa, just be confident, kasama mo ang Lord sa bawat hakbang na gagawin mo. God bless, Kuya Cado.

Always remember that your always and always in my prayers at baon-baon ko lahat ng natutunan ko sainyo. Maraming salamat sainyong lahat, hanggang sa muli nating pagkikita. God bless!

Kaye.
Ate Kaye.
Teacher Kaye.
Sister Kaye.

I miss you



           Five months.. after you left us. Though were not close.. I still misses you. I miss how you made us feel secure, protected, and loved. Five months, without a question, "where are you?", every time we got home. No one is yelling us right now, every time we eat junk foods, watching television and surfing net. No one is cooking the right food for us. You know what I really miss about you? I miss calling you, "Tatay", I miss having a father. I miss you. Sometimes, I don't want to stay home because I just remember every detail you made. Every moment we made, every laughter, every serious talk, and most especially every smile you gave. Yes, most of the time you made us to hate you, but you lose. We still love you. And you have nothing to do with that. I love you, and I miss you.

Rest in peace, my Father.

MASARAP O MASAYA BA MA-INLOVE? ANO FEELING? CURIOUS LANG AKO.. HEHE ^_^

Ang aga ko nagising, hindi dahil sinikap kong magising nang maaga, nagising ako dahil sa lakas ng katok sa pintuan ng kapatid ko. (asar) Bumalik ako sa pagkakahiga pero sa kasamaang palad hindi na ko makabalik sa pagkakatulog. (asar ulit) Naalala ko may dapat palang tapusin na articles na hindi ko natapos kahapon dahil sa pinagbigyan ko ang kagustuhan ng aking mga mata na makanuod ng movies. Habang nagiisip ng idudugtong sa article na ako lang ata ang makakaintindi, nakinig muna ng songs baka ma-inspired at makapagsulat. 


Nanumbalik na naman ang pagiging curiousity ko sa love... ano ba feeling ng inlove?  Totoo lang gusto ko ma-try, pero kapag andyan na... ayoko na! haha.. Hindi ko man lang hinahayaan na mainlove talaga ko, tamang makaramdam ako ng care sakanila, ayos na ko. Friends kung friends, hindi ko na pinapalagpas sa salitang friends, kahit na sa umpisa pa lang alam ko na ang patutunguhan.


At sa totoo lang wala na talaga ko maidugtong pa dito! hehe.. Kapag love talaga pinaguusapan wala talaga kong kainteres-interes! Ahhhh, wait! Kakabasa ko lang ng messages ko sa cp share ko lang yung na-receive kong message about sa pagiging inlove.


Eto ang sabi........


It DRIVES you CRAZY.


It MAKES you MAD.


It MAKES you JELOUS.


It MAKES you SAD.


It CAUSES SLEEPLESS NIGHTS


It BREAKS your HEART.


Kung yan lang din naman magiging causes ng pagiging inlove pipiliin ko na lang mahalin ang sarili ko. haha.. Ayoko pa mamatay, marami pa kong pangarap. Tamang hihintayin ko na lang si Mr. Right, alam kong matatagalan, pero handa akong maghintay at hindi iaalay ang aking precious heart sa kung kani-kanino lang.

New Year's Resolution...

   What is New Year's Resolution?
            ---> New Year's resolution is a commitment to a personal goal that a individual makes to a project or the reforming of a habit, often a lifestyle change that is generally interpreted as advantageous. - www.wikipedia.com

Popular Goals including Resolutions...

- Improve health: lose weight, exercise more, eat better, drink less alcohol, quit smoking
- Improve finances: get out of debt, save money
- Improve career: get a better job
- Improve education: improve grades, get a better education, learn something new (such as a foreign language or music)
- Improve self: become more organized, reduce stress, be less grumpy, manage time, be more independent
- Take a trip
- Volunteer to help others


This season new year's resolution is in the air, and I don't care... as for me, I don't believe in it and I'm tired for this things. New Year resolutions are not for people who can't hold their words, coz it's funny to think resolutions and make a list for a day then after January you totally forget! Such a waste of time, much better to write a poem and donate it to the library! 

Anyway, My New Year Resolution is...
                         
                      I DO, NOT MAKE ANY RESOLUTION, ANYMORE!





Have a Nice Day and God bless you.

Thank You!

Quiet and nonsocial
Withdrawing myself from my friends
Heartbroken, crushed, and torn
A feeling of loss that’s overwhelming

Then a spark of hope
I started talking to you
Keeping sentences short
Letting you talk more than myself

The heartbreak lifts a little
A newfound friend
Someone who immediately sees me for who I am
Someone so much like myself and the love I lost

Someone so kind
Pulling me gently out of the darkness
Helping me to feel more comfortable with myself
I feel that i can finally be happy once again

Everyone notices my mood has changed
That I’ve gone back to my normal self
They all think I’ve finally gotten over the hurt
But I haven’t, you’ve just helped to dull the pain

I feel free again
Like a huge weight has been lifted
I’m no longer afraid to be myself around anyone
I’m getting closer to my friends again

I can finally be happy once again
I now have just as many friends as I used to
No longer do I avoid everyone for fear of getting hurt
And it’s all thanks to you

So thank you for being my friend
For being there when I need you
To hold me when I’m upset
And to show me that everything will be ok
Because in the end it will
So thank you.....

For everything

woOoossHhh!

The secret I carry inside
Could make you confused
Could hurt me too

I lock it away with a key
Hold myself tight
Hold my box closed

I swallow the way
To peek inside
Just to hide
behind these lies

It wants to explode
    To be let out     
  But yet it still  
Must not get out

   Pin me down   
 Shut me out  
   Keep me still  
   I wanna shout   

I Miss You, My Bestfriend

I'm sad ..

I scuffled with my best friend ..

that day ..

Was the worst day of my life 
I've never before felt so sad .. 

I know there is a lot of people Jealous from us
but I will never let them make us leave our friendship ..

You’re not just my best friend you're my sister ..

I can’t think of my world without you! 

I will never forget the times we have shared ..

I remember my first day in the school 
when I looked to you I saw the hope ..

And I remember when you listened to my dreams. 
and listened to how I felt about life ..

Sis, thanks for everything you did for me 

I promise I will never forget you ..

because you're the best thing Happened in my life..

just remember I will always love you..

Sana Isang Araw Magising Na Lang Ako Na Katabi Ka

Hindi ko alam kung ano nakita ko sayo.
Hindi ko alam bakit iba nararamdaman ko kapag kasama kita.
Hindi ko alam bakit masaya ko kapag kausap ka.
Ikaw na kaya ang nakabihag ng puso ko? (ewww) ^___^

Makita lang ang iyong ngiti, problema'y nawawala.
Marinig lang ang iyong boses, puso ko'y sumisigla.

[kailangan ko ba talagang gawin to? haha]

Binibigyan mo ng kulay ang buhay ko.
Wala kang katulad sa mundong ito.

Isa na lang sigurong pagkakamali kung iiwasan kita.
Minsan mo na rin sinabi na may nararamdaman ka para sakin,
Hindi pa ko handa noon, pero ngayon mas lalong hindi. [haha]
Pasensya na kung hindi pa talaga kita kayang saluhin.

Makasarili ba ko?
Sakim?
Walang puso?
Meron naman bato nga lang.

Aaminin ko gusto kita. [yuck, haha]
May nagmamay-ari na kasi ng puso ko at sya ang aking mahal. [baduy]
At SANA ISANG ARAW MAGISING NA LANG AKO NA KATABI KO SIYA.




[YES, NATAPOS DIN!]

Living Without You

As I walk to this life called journey,
I never thought someone like You comes to my morning.
As the sunlight passing my window,
Thanking You is all I can do.

Knowing You, Lord,
Is more than riches in this world.
Accepting me for who I am,
Giving You glory is what I aim.

As I lift my hands to You,
Sign of surrendering to You.
Forgiving all my sin,
So much thing You could do.

As You showered blessings upon me,
Teach me to share on needy.
Having faith and trust to You,
Success is all I can gain.

NOPRO... (No Province)

How does it feel to be in province?
A good place that makes me convinces.
To have a picture and put in a frame,
Is part of my dream that I want to aim.

When the sun rising up from the east,
A rooster woke me up like a beast.
Fresh foods is ready to serve,
Just what like my tummy deserve.

I want to climb in a highest mountain,
Just to shout and ease the pain.
Having a ride on a wire,
Turn my heart like a fire.

Lying on a green grasses,
Give me great rashes.
Diving on a beautiful beaches,
Just to heal my itches.

God is my Mentor,
Is also a good Creator.
In His eyes everything is beautiful,
That makes us to be grateful.


HULAAN MO TITLE NITO.

Yes, I praise You.
Yes, I worship You.
Yes, I study Your Word.
Yes, I declare You are my LORD.
But do I truly surrender it all to You?

I obey Your commands.
You hear all my demands.
You take me out from the pit.
Now I found the Rock where I'm standing with my feet.
But do I truly surrender it all to You?

 I stop believing on fairy.
Now I'm inspired with Your story.
Upon walking on this journey.
You make me believe that there's nothing to worry.
 Surrendering to You is all I can do, But do I truly surrender it all to You?.

You give me light,
You make it bright.

lalalalalala... HEHE.
WALA NA KO MADUGTONG.

FAREWELL NA BA?

Noon hindi ko alam kung ano ibig sabihin ng salitang kaibigan.
Wala nga akong maituring na matalik na kaibigan, kasi hindi ko alam kung paano makipagkaibigan.
Sanay akong walang kasakasama, walang kausap, sa madaling salita mas gusto ko magisa.
Hindi ko rin kasi gusto ang nakikipagusap, wala akong pakielam sa mga tao sa paligid ko.


Laking pasasalamat ko sa Diyos nang ipakilala ka Niya sakin.
Hindi ka lang basta pinakilala, ginawa pa Niya tayong magkaibigan.
Tinuring kita higit sa isang kaibigan, minahal kita bilang kapatid.
Natagpuan ko sayo ang kalahati ng sarili ko, salamat dumating ka sa buhay ko.


Sa tuwing magkasama tayo, sumasaya ako.
Humalakhak, ngumiti, at maging malakas ang natutunan ko sayo.
Hiling ko noon sa Panginoon na mas lumalim at tumibay pa ang ating samahan bilang magkaibigan.
Hindi naman Niya ko binigo, mas napalapit ka sakin, mas minahal kita katulad ng pagmamahal sa sarili ko.


Natutunan kong dumepende sayo, kung ano desisyon mo, ganun na din ang akin.
Mapasaya lang kita, ayos na ko. Hindi ko gustong nasasaktan ka nang kahit na sino.
Parang tinutusok puso ko sa tuwing nakikita kitang lumuluha, napakaiyakin mo kasi, badtrip ka! haha!
Nagtatapang-tapangan ako sa harap mo, ayoko kasing nakikita mo kong mahina. arte ko no? haha..


Unti-unti hindi na kita maramdaman, walang text, at hindi na tayo ganoon nagkikita.
Dumating rin yung mga araw na hindi mo ko pinapansin.
Alam mo ba kung gaano kasakit yun?,  Ang sakit-sakit kasi hindi ko alam kung ano dahilan bakit dumidistansya ka sakin.
Sumulat ka sakin parang ewan taga probinsya ka ba? haha.. sabi mo sa sulat baka gusto ko ng space.. ano tayo magkasintahan, para humiling ako ng space?..


Lalo akong nasaktan nang sinabi mong nagsasawa ka na.
Tanong ko; saan ka nagsasawa? sabi mo palagi na lang tayo magkasama..
Dahil sa nagsawa ka at halatang ikaw ang may gusto ng space binigay ko yun., pero ano naman naramdaman mo nung lumayo ako.
Nagtatanong ka bakit hindi kita pinapansin, para ka talagang ewan, sabi mo nagsasawa ka na diba.. hays.


Nagtuloy-tuloy ang hindi mo pagkausap sakin, laging dedma mga text ko.
Pagnagkikita naman tayo wala akong matinong sagot na nakukuha sayo.
Hindi mo alam kung ano nararamdaman ko sa tuwing may nagtatanong sakin kung ano na nagyayari sayo, wala kasi akong maisagot.
Nagmumukha tuloy akong walang pakielam sayo, ang sakit nun, akala nila wala akong ginagawa para makausap ka!
Hindi nila alam para na kong tangang naghahabol sayo!


Muli kang nagbalik na parang wala lang, sige ayos lang ibabaon ko na lang sa limot lahat ng nangyari.
Pinasaya mo ko ulit, narinig ko ulit mga tawa mo, at lahat ng pangboboka mo.
Nakasama kita ulit, yes, ang saya kasi may partner na ulit ako.
May kalakhakan na naman ako, na-miss ko yun, ang tumawa... na kasama ka.


Muli binigyan tayo nang pagkakataon ni Lord na magkasama at magkausap.
Pero sa pagkakataong ito, iba na, wala nang biruan.
Sinabi mo sakin naguguluhan ka na sa mga nangyayari at hindi mo na alam ang gagawin.
Sabi mo aalis ka na, sabi ko ayos lang, handa naman ako, desisyon mo yan.

TOP 10 WAYS TO DESTROY EARTH

Top 10 Ways To Destroy Earth



10. Existence failure

You will need: nothing

Method: No method. Simply sit back and twiddle your thumbs as, completely by chance, all 200,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000 atoms making up the planet Earth suddenly, simultaneously and spontaneously cease to exist. Note: the odds against this actually ever occurring are considerably greater than a googolplex to one. Failing this, some kind of arcane (read: scientifically laughable) probability-manipulation device may be employed.

Utter, utter rubbish.

9. Gobbled up by strangelets

You will need: a stable strangelet

Method: Hijack control of the Relativistic Heavy Ion Collider in Brookhaven National Laboratory, Long Island, New York. Use the RHIC to create and maintain a stable strangelet. Keep it stable for as long as it takes to absorb the entire Earth into a mass of strange quarks. Keeping the strangelet stable is incredibly difficult once it has absorbed the stabilizing machinery, but creative solutions may be possible.

A while back, there was some media hoo-hah about the possibility of this actually happening at the RHIC, but in actuality the chances of a stable strangelet forming are pretty much zero.

Earth's final resting place: a huge glob of strange matter.



8. Sucked into a microscopic black hole

You will need: a microscopic black hole. Note that black holes are not eternal, they evaporate due to Hawking radiation. For your average black hole this takes an unimaginable amount of time, but for really small ones it could happen almost instantaneously, as evaporation time is dependent on mass. Therefore you microscopic black hole must have greater than a certain threshold mass, roughly equal to the mass of Mount Everest. Creating a microscopic black hole is tricky, since one needs a reasonable amount of neutronium, but may possibly be achievable by jamming large numbers of atomic nuclei together until they stick. This is left as an exercise to the reader.

Method: simply place your black hole on the surface of the Earth and wait. Black holes are of such high density that they pass through ordinary matter like a stone through the air. The black hole will plummet through the ground, eating its way to the center of the Earth and all the way through to the other side: then, it'll oscillate back, over and over like a matter-absorbing pendulum. Eventually it will come to rest at the core, having absorbed enough matter to slow it down. Then you just need to wait, while it sits and consumes matter until the whole Earth is gone.

Highly, highly unlikely. But not impossible.

Earth's final resting place: a singularity of almost zero size, which will then proceed to happily orbit the Sun as normal.

Source: "The Dark Side Of The Sun," by Terry Pratchett. It is true that the microscopic black hole idea is an age-old science fiction mainstay which predates Pratchett by a long time, he was my original source for the idea, so that's what I'm putting.

7. Blown up by matter/antimatter reaction

You will need: 2,500,000,000,000 tons of antimatter

Antimatter - the most explosive substance possible - can be manufactured in small quantities using any large particle accelerator, but this will take some considerable time to produce the required amounts. If you can create the appropriate machinery, it may be possible - and much easier - simply to "flip" 2.5 trillion tons of matter through a fourth dimension, turning it all to antimatter at once.

Method: This method involves detonating a bomb so big that it blasts the Earth to pieces.

How hard is that?

The gravitational binding energy of a planet of mass M and radius R is - if you do the lengthy calculations - given by the formula E=(3/5)GM^2/R. For Earth, that works out to roughly 224,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000 Joules. The Sun takes nearly a WEEK to output that much energy. Think about THAT.

To liberate that much energy requires the complete annihilation of around 2,500,000,000,000 tonnes of antimatter. That's assuming zero energy loss to heat and radiation, which is unlikely to be the case in reality: You'll probably need to up the dose by at least a factor of ten. Once you've generated your antimatter, probably in space, just launch it en masse towards Earth. The resulting release of energy (obeying Einstein's famous mass-energy equation, E=mc^2) should be sufficient to split the Earth into a thousand pieces.

Earth's final resting place: A second asteroid belt around the Sun.

Earliest feasible completion date: AD 2500. Of course, if it does prove possible to manufacture antimatter in the sufficiently large quantities you require - which is not necessarily the case - then smaller antimatter bombs will be around long before then.

6. Destroyed by vacuum energy detonation

You will need: a light bulb

Method: This is a fun one. Contemporary scientific theories tell us that what we may see as vacuum is only vacuum on average, and actually thriving with vast amounts of particles and antiparticles constantly appearing and then annihilating each other. It also suggests that the volume of space enclosed by a light bulb contains enough vacuum energy to boil every ocean in the world. Therefore, vacuum energy could prove to be the most abundant energy source of any kind. Which is where you come in. All you need to do is figure out how to extract this energy and harness it in some kind of power plant - this can easily be done without arousing too much suspicion - then surreptitiously allow the reaction to run out of control. The resulting release of energy would easily be enough to annihilate all of planet Earth and probably the Sun too.

Slightly possible.

Earth's final resting place: a rapidly expanding cloud of particles of varying size.

Earliest feasible completion date: 2060 or so.

Source: "3001: The Final Odyssey," by Arthur C. Clarke

5. Sucked into a giant black hole

You will need: a black hole, extremely powerful rocket engines, and, optionally, a large rocky planetary body. The nearest black hole to our planet is 1600 light years from Earth in the direction of Sagittarius, orbiting V4641.

Method: after locating your black hole, you need get it and the Earth together. This is likely to be the most time-consuming part of this plan. There are two methods, moving Earth or moving the black hole, though for best results you'd most likely move both at once.

Very difficult, but definitely possible.

Earth's final resting place: part of the mass of the black hole.

Earliest feasible completion date: I do not expect the necessary technology to be available until AD 3000, and add at least 800 years for travel time. (That's in an external observer's frame of reference and assuming you move both the Earth and the black hole at the same time.)

Sources: "The Hitch Hiker's Guide To The Galaxy," by Douglas Adams; SPACE.com

4. Meticulously and systematically deconstructed

You will need: a powerful mass driver, or ideally lots of them; ready access to roughly 2*10^32J

Method: Basically, what we're going to do here is dig up the Earth, a big chunk at a time, and boost the whole lot of it into orbit. Yes. All six sextillion tons of it. A mass driver is a sort of oversized electromagnetic railgun, which was once proposed as a way of getting mined materials back from the Moon to Earth - basically, you just load it into the driver and fire it upwards in roughly the right direction. We'd use a particularly powerful model - big enough to hit escape velocity of 11 kilometers per second even after atmospheric considerations - and launch it all into the Sun or randomly into space.

Alternate methods for boosting the material into space include loading the extracted material into space shuttles or taking it up via space elevator. All these methods, however, require a - let me emphasize this - titanic quantity of energy to carry out. Building a Dyson sphere ain't gonna cut it here. (Note: Actually, it would. But if you have the technology to build a Dyson sphere, why are you reading this?) See No. 6 for a possible solution.

If we wanted to and were willing to devote resources to it, we could start this process RIGHT NOW. Indeed, what with all the gunk left in orbit, on the Moon and heading out into space, we already have done.

Earth's final resting place: Many tiny pieces, some dropped into the Sun, the remainder scattered across the rest of the Solar System.

Earliest feasible completion date: Ah. Yes. At a billion tons of mass driven out of the Earth's gravity well per second: 189,000,000 years.

Source: this method arose when Joe Baldwin and I knocked our heads together by accident.

3. Pulverized by impact with blunt instrument


You will need: a big heavy rock, something with a bit of a swing to it... perhaps Mars

Method: Essentially, anything can be destroyed if you hit it hard enough. ANYTHING. The concept is simple: find a really, really big asteroid or planet, accelerate it up to some dazzling speed, and smash it into Earth, preferably head-on but whatever you can manage. The result: an absolutely spectacular collision, resulting hopefully in Earth (and, most likely, our "cue ball" too) being pulverized out of existence - smashed into any number of large pieces which if the collision is hard enough should have enough energy to overcome their mutual gravity and drift away forever, never to coagulate back into a planet again.

A brief analysis of the size of the object required can be found here. Falling at the minimal impact velocity of 11 kilometers per second and assuming zero energy loss to heat and other energy forms, the cue ball would have to have roughly 60% of the mass of the Earth. Mars, the next planet out, "weighs" in at about 11% of Earth's mass, while Venus, the next planet in and also the nearest to Earth, has about 81%. Assuming that we would fire our cue ball into Earth at much greater than 11km/s (I'm thinking more like 50km/s), either of these would make great possibilities.

Obviously a smaller rock would do the job, you just need to fire it faster. A 10,000,000,000,000-tonne asteroid at 90% of light speed would do just as well. See the Guide to moving Earth for useful information on maneuvering big hunks of rock across interplanetary distances.

Pretty plausible.

Earth's final resting place: a variety of roughly Moon-sized chunks of rock, scattered haphazardly across the greater Solar System.

Earliest feasible completion date: AD 2500, maybe?

Source: This method suggested by Andy Kirkpatrick

2. Eaten by von Neumann machines

You will need: a single von Neumann machine

Method: A von Neumann machine is any device that is capable of creating an exact copy of itself given nothing but the necessary raw materials. Create one of these that subsists almost entirely on iron, magnesium, aluminum and silicon, the major elements found in Earth's mantle and core. It doesn't matter how big it is as long as it can reproduce itself exactly in any period of time. Release it into the ground under the Earth's crust and allow it to fend for itself. Watch and wait as it creates a second von Neumann machine, then they create two more, then they create four more. As the population of machines doubles repeatedly, the planet Earth will, terrifyingly soon, be entirely eaten up and turned into a swarm of potentially sextillions of machines. Technically your objective would now be complete - no more Earth - but if you want to be thorough then you can command your VNMs to hurl themselves, along with any remaining trace elements, into the Sun. This hurling would have to be achieved using rocket propulsion of some sort, so be sure to include this in your design.

So crazy it might just work.

Earth's final resting place: the bodies of the VNMs themselves, then a small lump of iron sinking into the Sun.

Earliest feasible completion date: Potentially 2045-2050, or even earlier.

Source: "2010: Odyssey Two," by Arthur C. Clarke

1. Hurled into the Sun

You will need: Earthmoving equipment

Method: Hurl the Earth into the Sun. Sending Earth on a collision course with the Sun is not as easy as one might think; even though you don't actually have to literally hit the Sun (send the Earth near enough to the Sun (within the Roche limit), and tidal forces will tear it apart), it's surprisingly easy to end up with Earth in a loopy elliptical orbit which merely roasts it for four months in every eight. But careful planning can avoid this.

This is impossible at our current technological level, but will be possible one day, I'm certain. In the meantime, may happen by freak accident if something comes out of nowhere and randomly knocks Earth in precisely the right direction. Earth's final resting place: a small globule of vaporized iron sinking slowly into the heart of the Sun.

Earliest feasible completion date: Via act of God: 25 years' time. Any earlier and we'd have already spotted the asteroid in question. Via human intervention: given the current level of expansion of space technology, 2250 at best.

Source: "Infinity Welcomes Careful Drivers," by Grant Naylor



COPY-PASTE  FROM: http://www.livescience.com/

Trading My Sorrow

I'm trading my sorrow


I'm trading my shame

I'm laying it down for the joy of the Lord



I'm trading my sickness

I'm trading my pain

I'm laying it down for the joy of the Lord



Chorus:

And we say yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord

Yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord

Yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord Amen



I'm pressed but not crushed persecuted not abandoned

Struck down but not destroyed

I'm blessed beyond the curse for his promise will endure

And his joy's gonna be my strength



Though the sorrow may last for the night

His joy comes with the morning





>>>> wew... hindi ko alam kung ano meron sa kantang ito, bakit iba impact sakin?

pinang-audition ko na hindi ko naman pinag-praktisan, lakas ng loob ko no? haha..

IBA lang talaga dating sakin ng TRADING MY SORROW!

SI LORD KASI ANG LAKAS MANGHATAK E, NAHATAK TULOY AKO. HEHE..

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Reminiscing Ondoy..

Masasabi kong hindi ko talaga malilimutan lahat ng pangyayari noong sinalanta ng bagyong Ondoy ang Pilipinas. Aking pagkakatanda noon bago pa dumating si Ondoy nakapanood muna ko ng movies na patungkol sa mga disaster tulad na nga lang ng The day after tomorrow at ang isang movie rin na hindi ko maaaring makalimutan ay ang The Flood, dalawang beses ko pa nga inulit yun kasi natutuwa talaga ko sa mga pelikulang ganon. Kung hindi niyo pa napapanuod ang The Flood panuorin niyo na kasi parang ganun ang nangyari samin noong bumaha dito samin. Hindi ko alam kung sadyang tanga lang ang mga operators ng Dam at pinagsabay-sabay nilang buksan ang mga ito, bumaha tuloy ng sobra.

Ano nangyari noon?

Maghintay ka, kwekwento ko na oh! haha..

Malakas ang ulan ng araw na yon ang bigat sa pakiramdam nakakatamad bumangon, pero dahil may training ako nun sa Java Programming kailangan ko bumangon, pero sa sobrang lakas ng ulan hindi ko na talaga binalak pang lumabas ng bahay. Natulog na lang ako ulit parang wala lang. Nagising na lang ako mga 10:30 am? dun na nagumpisa ang lahat. Nagising ako dahil sa lakas ng tunog ng speaker ng computer, magagalit na sana ko nun sa kapatid ko pero wala pala sya dun, so ako ang umupo sa harap ng computer at ako muna ang naglaro. Peste wala pa kong 30 minutes nakaupo dun binulyawan na ko kaagad ng pinsan ko na magligpit ng gamit namin, nagtanong pa nga ko nun na may kasamang pagtataray at nakataas ang kilay, gulat kasi ako e, pagligpitin daw ba ko? adik ba to? haha.. pero nung sinabi nyang BUMABAHA na! ayun nataranta na ko.. syempre ako lang nasa bahay nun, ay hindi pala andun pala si kuya naliligo, lumabas lang sya ng CR ng may lumalabas ng tubig sa drainage, YUCK daw kasi, arte?.. haha.. ayun pagkasilip ko sa aming bintana takte ang taas kaagad ng tubig! wOooHooOoo.... 

Mabilis ang pagtaas ng tubig wala pang dalawampung minuto lagpas tao na kaagad! Ano na naman ba tong nararamdaman ko, parang natatakot ako. hahai. Laking pasasalamat ko sa Diyos at hindi man lang ako nagalusan ng kahit na kaunti sa pagharap ko sa malaking tubig, hindi lang kasi tubig kalaban ko nun habang sinisikap na maisalba ang aking buhay andyan na rin kasi yung mga naglalakihang kahoy at mga bakal na hindi ko malaman kung saan nagmula.

Nang makarating na ko sa Mount Everest ayyy sa bahay pala ng tita ko nakita ko mula sa bintana kung gaano na kataas ang tubig. Napagtanto ko na rin na ang aming buong bahay ay lubog nasa tubig tanging cellphone ko lang at ipod ang naligtas, haha.

Pinagpala pa rin talaga ko ng mga panahong yun kasi nasa loob ako nang bahay nakakatulog pa rin habang naghihintay na bumaba ang tubig, hindi ako natulad sa mga kapitbahay kong mga nasa bubong at nababasa ng ulan. Oo, nasasaktan at naaawa ako para sakanila, mga kaibigan ko yung mga nasa labas, wala akong  magawa kundi tignan na lang sila habang nananalagin. Sa kadahilanang mabilis ako mainip nagbilang na lang ako ng mga kotseng inaanod. wew haha.. 9 cars ata nabilang ko nun at mga tindahang inaanod. Pagkatapos magbilang kinamusta ko naman ang aking Cellphone ayun sa kadahilanang nabasa pala sya hindi ko pa pinipindot eh kung anu-ano na ang lumalabas, haha. wawa naman cp ko. Nang maubusan ng baterya yung cp, ipod naman ang aking pinagtripan ayos naman sya binalot ko kasi sya ng todo-todo mahal kasi yun baka ibigti ako ni mama kapag nalaman nyang nasira yun, haha. Pinagpala ako ng lubos-lubos nuh? Laking pasasalamat ko talaga at wala ako sa labas at nababasa ng ulan.

Gabi na lumalakas pa lalo ang hangin at ang ulan naguumpisa na namang lumakas. Aaminin ko nagalit ako kay LORD nun, para kasing hindi Nya ko pinapakinggan at sigurado naman akong hindi lang ako ang nananalangin nung mga panahong yun, marami kami. Maga-alas otso nang manahimik ang paligid, nabasag lamang ng nagsigawan na ang mga tao hindi dahil magugunaw na ang mundo kundi bumababa na ang tubig, nakahinga na rin nang maluwag, nagpasalamat ako kay LORD nun at humingi rin ng tawad kapal ko kasi e, hindi naman tamang magalit ako Sakanya, nakalimutan ko kasi Diyos nga pala Sya gagawin Niya kung ano ang nararapat.

Umaga nang makita ang epekto ng baha sa lugar namin, nagulat din ako sa naging itsura nang bahay namin, sadyang kaawa-awa. At habang nanghihinayang ang lahat sa mga nawala nilang kagamitan ako'y nanatiling nakakapit sa pangako ng Diyos na "my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus" Philippians 4:19 at bakit ako mangangamba kung sinabi rin ng Diyos na "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life[b]?" Matthew 6: 25-27.

Pagkapit lang kay LORD ang tanging naging lakas ko ng mga oras na sinasalanta kami ng baha. Kahit nasa kalagitnaan ako ng kalamidad patuloy pa rin Sya sa pagbibigay at patuloy akong iniingatan hindi lang ako kasama na ang aking buong sambahayan.

KUNWARING PHOTOGRAPHER ^_^

Eto ang kakalabasan kapag mahilig ka mag-stolen shot.
Iba ang aking nadarama sa tuwing kumukuha ako ng litrato.
Hindi ko alam kung ano pero masaya ako sa pagkuha ng litrato.

Sila ay aking mga kamagaral na walang kasalanan. wew.
Tamang biktima lamang ng aking camera. hehe..



                                                                      Barroga at Bea


Dhea (hinihintay si espiritu)






                                                               


                                                                        Janine (stolen kuno)